There is now a link to a blog for Tim and Brian off to the side there.
It's tiki torches at twilight...a song by David Lindley who he listened to all of the time.

I still have no words to say. I can't form thoughts. All I have in me is drained out...I feel so sad and lifeless. Ugh. I can't look at pictures, I can't sit and think, I can't focus.

This is the most shitty deal ever.

I can't imagine a time when I won't cry for Tim and when I won't be sad anymore. It seems impossible.

"A thing of beauty is a joy forever."

I miss you...uncontrollably.
I never knew that I could hurt this much.

No, no, don't speak--for some moments in life there are no words.

We made it back. I apologize for not writing while I was away...but you have heard all about it! I could sit here and give you a day by day recap but I don't really think that it would do my trip justice. It was so much deeper than that for me.
When I tell people that I went away and worked, they don't understand. I was completely aware of what I was in store for. LIndsay told me and I knew...that was that. Everyone around was amazed that I was there doing that and quite frankly, it's sad that everyone is so amazed. Could they never imagine helping a friend that asks? That is just what I will do when she says she needs help...fly across the U.S. to do it. And it was hard and a little tiring but who cares I had one of the best times that I have had in a VERY long time. The reason for that is because of the time that I got to spend with LIndsay and Frazier... They are two of my favorite people and I just adore them...I can't really put it into words. Ever since I have met Lindsay, I have felt connected with her and now, I feel lucky to say that about Frazier too. It was a really good thing for me to go and I feel better about my life knowing that I have them as friends. It was really hard for me to say good bye and thinking about being there and thinking about them makes me weepy, I can't explain. I just hope that you all get to meet them soon.

When we got back to town I had three days to throw together a 5 tiered wedding cake. I have learned my lesson again about letting them handle the flowers. I say, "make sure that they are small please, otherwise they look really strange on the cake...". and they say, "oh yeah, no problem..." Um, yeah...problem. I show up and the roses are large and have bloomed. They had rose buds too but they were giant rose buds, it was weird, they were like abnormally large. So, I just took the roses and jammed them into the base layer of the cake and then just did the best I could with what I had and then peeled out in the driveway. At least I heard that the bride was happy and that everyone was raving about the cake...so, I feel okay about it but not as good as I could have felt if everything would have gone perfectly...
Oh well, live and learn. I feel no guilt in cashing this check!
So, that's all I have for now. I am now just back home and back at it. I feel ready to do more...I feel awakened and ready for harder challenges whatever they may be. But I am now, once again, on my path to have my own business and I am kind of tired of waiting for...well, what exactly am I waiting for??
Tonight for dinner, we are having 'Red Pepper and Corn Soup with Basil'. Sounds good to me.
Later ya'll.